you don’t know how many times i repeat endearments to my loved ones because I’m constantly afraid that it might be my last time. you might think I’m over worrying about such things and yes the inevitable will come some day (whether I like it or not) but I still think it over. what will I feel if the person (my parents) I love the most were to disappear. what if one day something happens?
these things make me rethink my behavior. it makes me itch in guilt at the horrible way I behave. the way i retort (
it’s bad and rude I know sorry 😦 )
perhaps it’s because I have no siblings. I don’t like the feeling of being alone. I don’t have many people to confide to and sometimes it feels lonely. so lonely i have to resort to using this blog. I don’t like telling people how I feel
( at least not anymore)
you know what’s the worst part, if death strikes. Their only daughter (
me) will have a terrible time getting over it. their existence will fade into oblivion and only i will never get over it. the mere thought sends shivers down my back and it makes me truly cherish them. because they have done so much yet I can only repay this little.
they overlook my flaws. they make me feel special. they make me feel loved. they give me confidence. they make me happy. they’re the reason for my existence. they raised me to what I am (
nothing so far but I’ll make it some day)
so one day, I want to be the one making them feel loved. I want to be the one making them happy. I want to lift the weights off their shoulder and I will be the one to bear it. I will do everything it takes to make them happy. so thank you mom and dad for raising me. it’s still long before I can take care of you but for now I’ll try my best to take care of myself.
I l o v e y o u
so if you find your parents really irritating because they nag. they’re doing it out of love. trust me, all your parents love you a lot. they do things for us that we may not see. be grateful to them. earning money is hard yet they willingly spend it on us.
so do me a little favor and show a little gratitude. do little things ; try to retort less help more 🙂