a wish to forget

Erase it all, tear every photograph with our faces plastered with joyful smiles and sparkling eyes. Rip them into shreds, until jagged edges and strips are all that remain.

Let it burn, light our bittersweet memories with the remnants of our passionate love. Burn it all, don’t you dare to leave a single trace.

Blow it away, let the ashes of our memories follow the strong gust of wind until they’re out of our sight. Who knows where they will fly to, perhaps to places we never got to visit. Or maybe it’ll go as far as to the skies, where deities reside and maybe there we’ll unite, as stars that shine or clouds that fade to nothingness.

Let it fade, forget every prominent feature of mine that you used to remember so fondly, rip the pages of the entries that form your every thought off. Then, wallow in tears in an attempt to purge every memory of me-every memory of us.

I see tears welling, let them drip and drop like the poison in the words that slip from your lips. I’ll stare right back at you, but i will not cry. You’re not quite worth any of my precious tears, especially not since they’ll end up staining my cheeks and my clothes, leaving me soiled and tattered.

Hear the sound of my voice for the very last time, how genuinely real and endearing i sound. Listen to each giggle i fail to stifle and every hearty laugh that fall right out from my lungs.

Let the sweet nothings and insincere conversations ooze from the spaces of your brain, the one i deemed empty ages ago.Let them run into desolate corners, where all our unfulfilled promises and forgotten dreams run amok with fear. They’ll inhabit the murky depths of your mind, along with guilt & remorse. And when you finally remember of their existence, guilt would have eaten you inside out, until you are left empty with remorse but it’s too late.

Meet me once more, let me see how different you are from the selfless person i once knew, the same person who would wipe my sorrows away and would wrap me with warmth and love. Let me watch you in astonishment as i feel the thorns on your body as you embrace me. They sink deep into my skin, but this time i allow them to. Let me listen clearly to your voice in stunned silence as i find poison in your sugar glazed speech.

It’s been there for the longest time, except i never quite noticed. I must have been rather oblivious, or you were good at hiding behind your words glazed with poison, of which i have tactlessly tasted as honey. I guess i just never expected that something so toxic would hide beneath your cameralized words.

I wish to forget people that only exist in my memories because right now they’re not the people i once knew.

Please let me forget every hurt they have inflicted upon me, and even if i do remember, let me only remember the good that they’ve done and the beautiful memories that we’ve shared.

But if i can so greedily entreat, please erase the indelible impression that they have left etched on my mind, please let me let go & forget them